October 7, 2011

Giving My Life to God.

The title says it all.. I am giving my life to God.

He has given me the greatest gifts I could ask for. I was never religious before but now, God is my everything. I have decided to refrain from sex until marriage, I have repented and even though I love my daughter and would never give her up.. I do regret having pre-marital sex, even though I plan to be with Addison(baby daddy) forever. I am going to do all I can to stop sinning and stop being the person I used to be. I want to be a good person for my daughter and myself and for above all Jesus Christ. I am so great full for everything he has presented me with.

And i am giving my life to God.

July 29, 2011

Letters to Maddy: I love you(:

I love your kicks. I love your jumps. I love it when you sleep l, I love it when your awake.
When you arrive I will miss every movement I once felt inside me, but I will love every smile, every laugh, every blink of your eyes. I will love holding you in my arms. I will love the touch of your soft skin. I will love taking you on midday walks. I will love every second if your life. I will love you. I love you already(:

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July 24, 2011

Lets be honest shall we?

As you guys should know I am recently a teen mom.
Becoming a Mom was not in my life goals, but hey s**t happens right. ? I found out I was pregnant and immediately I knew I was keeping my baby. I lost may friends because they told me I was ruining my life and many people stressed to me how hard it was going to make my life. At the time losing my friends and hearing all the negative comments made me upset. But let me be honest. Being a mom isn’t easy, not as a teen nor adult! But its not
hard” either, It’s a challenge:) and its amazing. Looking back u
I don’t care about the “friends” I lost and I can’t wait to see the look on the faces of the ones who doubted me, when they see how great I am doing 🙂
In all honesty being a mom is the greatest thing ever and it has made me stronger and happier then I could ever imagine 🙂 I would never say its okay to be a teen mom nor would I recommend it to any teen. And I am definitely not trying to glamorize it. But let’s be honest shall we, its only hard if you Make it hard(:

July 23, 2011

2 week update(:

I had my daughter on July 7th. She is 2 weeks old now and things are great. She is so good. Except she has nights and days mixed up:/. She was 8.4lbs wen she was born 8.1lbs wen she left the hospital. And 8.10 at her 2 week check up(: things are great. Labor story coming soon with pics and life of teen motherhood(: ta ta for now =)

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June 26, 2011

39weeks pregnant update

Sorry I haven’t updated in a while.. internet has been down.. and I am forced to use my cell phone to post.

So I am 39 weeks and 4 days pregnant. And I am more then ready to have my Little girl. I’m sick and tired everyday. I’m tired of feeling like crap and I want to meet my little girl:) my doctor doesn’t believe in waiting 2weeks after your due date to induce so if I don’t have my baby girl by July 5th I am being induced July 6th at 5pm. I an really scared to be induced. I know its harder on your body then natural labor is. So everyday I walk, climb stairs, bounce around, etc. All in efforts to get this baby out. I feel contractions every so often and at my last appointment my doctor said I was dilated a little and she could feel the babies head.. I pray every day for a healthy and happy labor, delivery, and baby. And that it comes super soon.
Well that’s all

for now:) thanks for reading.

June 15, 2011

Been a while..

I know its been a while since i have posted.
Been verry Busy here, trying to get everything together and preparing for the birth of my daughter ANY DAY NOW:)
Be back soon,
I promise. ❤

June 9, 2011

Kid shows not for kids?

So the other day, I was watching the “regular show? on cartoon network. Seemingly harmless right? Well the show went on and this giant bean thing came into the show, again seems harmless right? All of the sudden this bean thing squirts coffee into the characters mouths. Not so bad, EXCEPT for the fact that it squirted it out of his boobs.!!!!
Now what’s my point. Well the fact that these are shows children are supposed to be watching. They are totally inappropriate. And don’t forget that fact that they are teaching kids that caffeine solves your problems(you’d have to watch the episode).
And later in the show one of the other characters says “you need to stop pumping it in the wind and start pumping it at the gym” or something like that. And to a little kid I know they won’t think anything of it, but to me it sounds like the character was making a reference to jacking off. Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t want my kid watching these shows.
**clip of what i was talking about..

June 7, 2011

4 hours at the hospital..

Last night was an eventful night. I woke up nauseated and being 36 weeks pregnant I figured it was just morning sickness. But around 5 I started having stomach pains, so I called my doctor, she told me just to come in the morning, so that was the plan. But then I began to vomit. So my mom made me go to the hospital. So I get to the hospital,get  in this horrible hospital gown and get all strapped up to the monitors. Fun.. not really. Then they tell me I am having contractions. And they were strong, but I didn’t feel a thing. So the nurse checked me and I was completely closed up. No dilation or effacement. So she had me drink a large cup of water to try to stop the contractions. But as soon as i finished it,

it came right back up.. So that didn’t help. Because I was still having contractions the nurse gave me fluid and medicine to stop my nausea through an IV.. Which hurt like hell and made me shake like crazy. but after all that the contractions finally stopped thank God. And now I am pretty much on bed rest. :/

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June 2, 2011

Maddison. With Two D’s

Is it such a problem to name my daughter Maddison because is means “son of Matthew”?(going by what someone told me)

In the opinions of others, it is a problem. Supposedly it’s over used, and I am giving my daughter a guy name. Ha that’s funny because I have never met a guy with that name. The closest name I have ever heard on a guy is Addison and that is her father’s name. We are naming my daughter Maddison after her father Addison.

So if it’s not bad enough that people (who I have no relation to) hate the fact that I am naming her Maddison because of the meaning, they are so pissed that the name has 2 d’s… WTF… Last time I checked it was up to the parents of a child what to name them and how to spell it.. Correct? or am I wrong?

Sorry for the useless rant.. Thanks for reading..  🙂

May 31, 2011

Getting back in the game.

I used to write ALL THE TIME.. poems, short stories, ideas for stories, etc. But i haven’t written much in the Past couple of years, except stuff for English and journalism. So. How do I get back into the writing scene. I still love to write but, ideas don’t flow the way they used to. I am going to go through some of my old stories and poems and review some of my writing, to get an idea. Maybe they will refresh my mind. The only hard part is finding them.

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